Waiting …

Where’s my next step?

Don and I moved to a lovely over-55 community in September last year. Since October, the beautiful home we left behind has been on the market. We’ve had many people come through the house; comments have been extremely positive about both the main and the guest houses and the property itself, in a beautiful little hill valley five miles above Capitola Beach.

But to date we’ve received only one low-ball written offer. Dear friends are in the same situation, also waiting for a sale. This has become a stressor, and yes, we’ve been discouraged.

Don still maintains the property, pays taxes, insurance, and energy bills. We had hoped and prayed that the house would sell before he felt obliged to plant new spring flowers and re-beautify the yard. After all, we moved to simplify our lives and reduce some of those demands.

We’ve prayed for a good buyer–oh yes, we’ve prayed, as have friends and family. But at times it feels like our prayers have gone unheard.

Have you ever been there, wondering why God appears not to answer?

I prayed for my late husband’s recovery following dual transplant surgery, along with hundreds of others who knew and loved us. God’s answer was “not here.” Because he had accepted God’s promise of eternal life to those who accept the forgiveness and new life promised through Jesus’ death and resurrection, I am confident that Jerry is healed, whole, and is rejoicing in the presence of God. And while that gave me great hope, it did not remove the pain of loss.

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For God so loved the world that He gave His only . . . Son, that whoever believes in Him might have eternal life. John 3:16

And now, Don and I are again being stretched. Will I trust God in this long season of waiting, knowing many have far greater needs than ours? Or will I choose not to trust because things aren’t going according to my plan?

Will I believe and act on the truth that God is still, and always will be, my loving Father, or will I complain and allow bitterness to creep into my spirit?

I look back and recall God’s faithfulness in all the seasons of my life:

  • The times I’ve made mistakes that God has redeemed, and through which he has brought something good.
  • The breakup of a relationship I believed would lead to marriage but didn’t –and how grateful I am for that “no”!
  • Ten years of service and God’s protection as I served with a team in the L.A. inner city.
  • Healing from the stresses of those ten years.
  • Marriage to a wonderful man at the ripe old age of 36.
  • God’s faithfulness and strength and mercy and comfort, as we faced his death twenty years later.
  • In grief at other losses–of my nephew, grandparents, dear friends, my father.
  • The marvelous gift of a second love and life with my Don.
  • God’s promises of eternal life, of comfort and peace and Presence in all circumstances.

So if I complain now, it seems a bit–well, more than a bit–selfish. As I look back I can see how God led in each situation. Minister and author V. Raymond Edman once said “Never doubt in the dark what God has shown you in the light.”

Life is hard sometimes. It can be confusing. And we were created to love and serve and honor our God–not to understand Him. But He has given us His great and precious promises to help us in just such times as this.

So, despite moments of stress and lack of understanding; despite concerns about the house still being unsold, I will choose to trust for His best, knowing He loves me more than I can comprehend, and that His purpose for me goes far beyond the sale of a piece of property.

You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you. Isaiah 26:3

Are you questioning why your prayers seem to be unheard in any certain area? I’d love to hear how you’re dealing with your questions and doubts.

May you be encouraged by the peace and Presence of God.

6 Responses

  1. Joyce Asimus Davis says:

    Carol,
    Your blog brought back many memories of those days with Jerry and prayers which were answered with a “no”. And our prayers for Dick when we received the same answer. God, in His sovereignty, had plans for us beyond our farthest imagination. Happiness returned with Don and Bob. Now Bob and I are going through a testing time with a diagnosis of agressive prostate cancer.
    We are waiting for results of a bone scan and treatment plan. How blessed we are to know our wonderful Lord has us, our present and our future in His hands. We are praying for peace and praising Him in this dark hallway while we wait for Him to open the next door. I love you, friend.

    • carolnl says:

      Oh Joyce, your comment brings tears to my eyes. Our lives felt shattered with the losses of Jerry and then Dick. God’s plans are so far beyond ours, and often beyond our comprehension. And now you and Bob face another waiting period with this diagnosis. I am so very sorry to hear this and will be praying for you both, whatever comes. May God surround you with His peace and Presence. Please keep me posted dear friend. We ARE in His loving hands. I love you too.

  2. Shirley Buxton says:

    Oh, what a challenge this is Carol. I’ll be praying with you that a sale is completed. Blessings always.

  3. Karen O'Connor says:

    Dear Carol, thank you for this heartfelt blog about waiting on God and trusting despite the stress of not knowing. Charles and I went through a similar season when trying to sell our property in San Diego so we could buy our home in Watsonville to be closer to family. We could not do the one without the other. Many potential buyers streamed through our condo and loved it–but not enough to purchase! Then at the truly last moment Charles’ daughter, who had had a recent breakup with her partner, needed a place of her own. She had always loved our condo so we made a great deal for her and for us and she is still there to this day. I often reflected on how this all turned out and concluded that God had our condo in mind for Kathleen so he held it for her till she was ready.

    • carolnl says:

      Karen, I so appreciate your sharing this story of how God in His wisdom held your condo for Kathleen, despite others who “loved it” but not enough to buy. That is an encouragement to me: that He has a plan and it is good. Much love.

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